Today it suddenly hit me that letting you go was one of the worst mistakes I have made in my life.

Another one was not loving you more. 

One more for being so self absorbed. 

Maybe one more for always asking for more. 

I have been fighting the urge to call, text or contact you in anyway for about 20 days now. 

I missed u so much.

That explains the times I gave in and texted you. Quite a few times actually.. :/

For a good 300 over days, you've been a part of my life, a part of me, a part of everything.

Everything I do. Everywhere I go.

We've been there. Done that.

I just wanna turn back time..

I want us to be happy. Happy together again. 

Xiao yi called me from London today. She asked how am I. How are you. How are we.

I told her we're happy. 很幸福.

Then a part of me died. 

I miss you.