I remember

We both snuggled in bed
Ready to fall asleep
"baby hug me"
"but so uncomfortable i cannot sleep!"
You did anyway
Everything felt so right
I thought to myself
"I think this is it"
The boy I love so much
Falling asleep next to me
Arms finally around me(after so many nights of telling him to hug me to sleep)
It's finally the weekends
After 5 nights of saying how much we missed each other
Another week of non stop drilling at training
My mind is tired
My body is tired
My emotions are on a roller coaster ride
Doesn't matter
We're right here
Falling asleep together
It's finally quiet
Finally peaceful
Then I thought
"what if one day.. What if he gets tired one day.."
No you wouldn't..
"but what if.."
I turned around
Hugged you tighter
To feel your existence
To remember?
So if you were to leave one day I could close my eyes to remember?
"no he wouldn't leave"
"but what if.."
I started to cry
Everything was overwhelming again
"baby don't leave me?"
Emotions up n running..
You said "why r u crying?"
I don't know..
Why am I crying..?
But it got worse
I whispered
"baby I love u"
I hugged u tighter
U kissed me
On my forehead..
"I love u too"
And wiped my tears

Now..
Why am I crying..?
I don't know..
Maybe I do..

I love you.
But I don't hear your voice anymore..
Maybe this is why.