每次都会想
下一页的我
会是什么
都没想出什么结论
我很像什么都不想要了
以前什么梦想
什么愿望都有你
现在没你都没意义了
其实
我好像一直都停留在我们走不一样路的时后
你走好远了吧
我都不想动
你有想回来吗？

我都很努力开心
很空虚
可是有开心到啦

有时候玩到很疯时会去想
You'll never enjoy this if u were here
我们过的生活很不一样
你说过的不是吗
一直都在说
可是你知道吗
I never had a kind of "world" I wanted to be in. All I wanted was just to be with u.
Easier said.

你还记得吗
以前你把陪写成配
后来你说
你可以配我
也可以陪我
那只是华文烂然后用来下台的吗哈

没想到失去的勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开

刮风这天我试过握着你手
但偏偏雨渐渐大到我看你不见
还要多久我才能在你身边
等到放晴的那天也许我会比较好一点

从前从前有个人爱你很久
但偏偏风渐渐把距离吹得好远

好不容易又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像还是说了
拜拜

I never really understood the meaning of this song until today, it's suddenly fits like puzzle pieces.

It takes so much emotions and feelings to get from lovers to friends.

I guess I don't think about it that much now? It's just how a part of me always feels like we could have been something else
Feels like it's just.. Wasted.

I feel guilty moving on. Putting all the love you gave me behind.
But hey, it's GAVE.
Past tense.

How confusing..

现在我们的距离真的好远
至少有机会多爱一天

Goodnight,
baby.

“We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has only happened once, and that’s why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I’ll never forget a single moment of it.”

 —  Nicholas Sparks

"Someday, we'll run into each other again, I know it.
Maybe I'll be older and smarter and just plain better.
If that happens, that's when I'll deserve you.
But now, at this moment, you can't hook your boat to mine, because I'm liable to sink us both."

I have the same thoughts. This brought me back to last April. I met you the second time and I guess everything was the same. We just.. Sank. We held on longer this time, made a few more memories and we drowned in more pain.

I guess as time went by we got further away from each other. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't think there's anything I can do now.

I was at a club last night and the live band played 爱在记忆中找你
A part of me was happy we happened.
The rest of me.. Broken

"so how did you guys break up?"
I'm now too lazy to explain. I hate having to face the fact again and again.

Maybe we'll be together again one day. I'll cherish you. At that time, we would have really came a long way.
Maybe I'll move on and find my way back into love.
But you'll always be a part of me.
Maybe you'll come back and fight for me like you did.
This time, I would say yes.
Maybe we will be like 2 parallel lines from now.
But pictures of us will forever be etched in my head.
It doesn't really matter what become of us anymore.

I love you baby,
forever and always.

Now I'm sane enough to let go of u and of us.

Earlier than I thought
I gave myself till the end of October to prepare for the worst
It's either the end or a happily ever after.

I'm ready now.
But I don't want an answer, yet.
Maybe a part of me is still holding on, hoping u'd change ur mind.
U used to be so predictable.
Did u change?
Did my confidence leave?
Or is my denial in the way?
Maybe I already know what's on your mind

I can't tell anymore.

I asked u to think of the good times we had.
But behind every happy picture.. There will be something unhappy.
Maybe those flooded ur mind.
Have we been wearing masks for too long?
But who could deny the very moment those smiles were captured.
We were happy, weren't we?
U were happy, weren't u?
I was.

Isn't it tiring to weigh pros and cons.
Did I make it so easy for u to see all things bad?

I met Audrey one night.
She asked how're u. How're we?
"Good :)"
Oh my psychotic level of denial n make believes. Lol
A million scenes gushed in that very second.
I still managed to smile.

Another part of me died.
AGAIN.

I told her in the end..
"we broke up.."
I think my heart weighed a million tons that moment.
"but I'm trying to get him back :D"
Oh my face was so hopeful. But i was in so much denial my heart didn't care if I was lying anymore.
I knew..
Somehow..
I can't.