I almost remember how u were like back then

How I was like

How we were like

Almost

One of the reasons I left...

Once I had almost everything
The sweetest boy in the world
I love you and everything you do for me
Happiness was when you hug me to sleep at night
All I needed was time. More time to be with you.
Every second. With you.

Then one day I was playing my favourite sad songs
And realise there're no more feelings in these songs
I was too peaceful. Too happy? Peaceful.
No tears. No heavy heart.
Peaceful.
Empty? Empty. I felt empty.
Boring.
I got bored. I got bored of being happy. I thought I needed some emotion roller coaster.

What the fuck is wrong with me.

Now I don't ever feel whole without you.
This. This is empty.
And I'll never feel whole with you again.

今晚特别想你.......
你想我吗?

你可以不要那么快乐吗
没有我可以不要那么快乐吗

很多人说旧情人当不成朋友
是恨吗？
不甘心？
没话聊了？
想逃避？
要忘掉？
还是还爱着？

其实和你做朋友很像不错
跟以前也差不多
还是出来吃饭什么什么
一样斗嘴
一样讲废话
一样开心
只是很像少了些什么
是我太贪心吗
Tsk tsk tsk

可是

其实
太像朋友
满..

不要可不可以.............
:(

一起通宵熬夜追连戏剧时

他累了会说"baby我很想睡觉＂
你累了会不耐烦的说＂我累了＂

我会跟他说＂哦晚安＂
因为我一个人看没关系
我跟你说的是＂不要啦配我看＂
因为很想你陪我看
很想你能一起看到我看的东西
一起感动一起说烂还是怎样

他会说＂不要啦等下我追不上我们要一起看啦＂
你会说＂我真的很累很累很累很累很累很累＂

他会说＂你陪我睡觉啦... 过来＂
你会说＂你自己看啦＂还是 ＂改天啦我要睡了＂

语气都好不一样..
你真的很木头

只是看着戏时想到
想到你 :)

Remember I said

You don't just stop loving somebody
You just do or it's because you've never loved him/her.

I keep questioning myself now.
Time isn't going to bring us closer. It's gonna rip whatever that's left of us apart.
The flame inside me is so weak right now.
But I really don't want it to die off.

Sometimes I don't but most of the times I want you to be mine again so I can look at you n tell you how much I love you and how I wouldn't trade you for anything else. I want to show off to everyone that I'm the happiest girl just cos I have u.
I want to tell u we'll live happily forever n never fight again before falling asleep next to u.
I want to hug u really tightly and tell u I never ever want to let u go again.
I want to wake up in the morning and give u a kiss on ur sleepy face n cuddle the whole morning away
I want to text u everyday just telling u how much I love u
I want to talk to u about my day n hear u talk about urs and we'd bitch together about whoever got in our way
I want to be jealous n hate every girl u talk to n act all okay with it

I want u back.
Maybe because I can never get my heart back.

What's on your mind?
I miss you too.